Consciousness Became Knowing That Knows You
My upbringing was one where my parents’ unresolved pain created more and more problems in the home. It fractured me to the point I could not know peace within me. My ACE Score (Adverse Childhood Experiences) was about 8 out of 10.
Most painful was that I knew me to be no one the other would be.
Life is difficult when you’re unwanted and there is no “you” to know with others. It is an unnatural way to be. The mind, normally calm, becomes restless. It tries to figure out why. It comes up with explanations and makes decisions so we can pretend we belong or we are needed as ourselves. It makes pain go away.
True healing eluded me until I cracked open a major decision in 2006. At that point too, I was trying hard to develop my intuitive abilities. So, after releasing that particular decision, I began to hear a presence on the other side. Something had opened up. I could ask questions and hear answers.
Since then, I have logged countless hours to become known as who I can be.
Some universal, spiritual concepts that came out of my time “in the chair,” the countless hours I spent examining my decisions from the past that were creating all my pain in the present: We are known with one another as who we are about to be. We know who we began to be and who we can be. We are known as who we can be when we decide we are worthy of being known as ourselves. We know what there is to know to be known as who we can be. We are known to be one when you are you and I am who I need to be and known with you.
Richard Unger told me once during a mini hand analysis that I am the most intuitive person at the analytics convention and the most analytical at the intuitive convention. I am uncompromising (in a good way of course!), truthful, welcoming, persistent, and tough, meaning whole and complete.
I am . . . a podcast junkie (I listen closely to the wisdom of the level 8's and 9's), prefer alternative music, love humor of all sorts, bike ride for exercise. I'm married, happily, and we are raising a teenager and surviving (joke). Actually, she's an amazing kid and the making of us.
Greatest influences: the knowing of theologian Thomas Berry (level 8), theoretical physicist John A. Wheeler (level 8), and AA/ACoA/CoDA truth speaker Bob Earll (level 5). Unity driven, I'm halfway through writing a second book of day to day ideas that we can know as one.
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